04
He sat back on the stool as if nothing had happened and began to write the chart.
“Feeling better?”
Oooh, my heart raced at his remark.
“Not bad.” I responded casually.
He gave me a contemptuous look and smiled again.
“You want me to be responsible for it?”
By this point, he was still calmly writing his medical records as if I was just visiting him.
What an asshole.
“I don't know how to handle this.” I didn't want to hold him responsible, I just didn't know what to do with the outcome.
I wanted to hear his opinion, and I tentatively asked, “Do you want an abortion?”
I held my tongue on the surface, but my palms were already sweating.
He was still writing his chart, as if he was listening to me about something that didn't concern him.
He was so calm it drove me crazy.
“You decide.” He looked up suddenly, his eyes straight at me, still with little emotion.
“Uh-huh.” Can I? In this situation ......
“Scared?” There was something teasing in his tone.
“Uh-huh.” I trailed off.
“Now you know you're scared ......” He turned a new page of the chart and laughed, ”That's not like you that night.”
Me: ???
Thinking about how he looked dying that morning, I really wanted to know what I had done that night.
However, he seemed to be blaming me for everything that was wrong, and I was a little offended.
“It wasn't my fault alone.” I said so quietly that I could hardly even hear myself.
But he suddenly paused and raised an eyebrow at me lightly, “I had a fever that night, you think I had the strength to fight back?”
I was speechless.
I thought in my heart, no strength to resist, have the strength to toss me?
Scumbag, he is scumbag!
“If you think about it ......” He was silent for a while, continuing to write the medical record, writing the last line before he sighed and looked up, ”Next week.”
“Next week?”
“I'm not free until next week.” He explained.
“Okay.”
Adults have to pay for the things they've done, I didn't have a problem with that, I was just uneasy inside.
05
A week later, I came back to his office.
My resolve to have surgery was shaken.
The reason was a family day on the weekend.
My mom, uncle, and brother, were very lively together.
I went back to my rented house, I looked around and the cozy picture of my mom's house came to my mind.
I suddenly sighed, it was lonely as never before.
My mom and my dad divorced when I was very young.
After the divorce, I followed my mom, and we've been living in a rental house since middle school.
Because my mom met true love and formed a new family when I was in middle school.
She was happy, and I should have been happy.
But when I returned to the rental house, I felt lost.
All of a sudden, I wanted to keep the baby. I was so lonely.
I knew Ethan wouldn't agree.
He already had a girlfriend.
So until I came into his office again, I was still torn about keeping the baby.
“Doctor Smith again?” It was the same male doctor as last time.
“Yes.” I sat there, a little formal.
“I'm Gabriel.”
“I'm Angelia. Nice to meet you.”
He shook my hand, then leaned in close, looked around and lowered his voice.
“We were all betting on who the cold Doctor Smith would be subdued by ...... We didn't think it would be you, we're so impressed.”
“Huh?” I whispered a reminder, “You guys misunderstood ...... I'm not with him ...... he has a girlfriend.”
“Who?” He suddenly looked at me seriously, “Why don't I know?”
“......” I was also baffled, Doctor Smith doesn't have a girlfriend? I misunderstood?
“You mean, Doctor Smith is fooling around with other women behind your back?”
I didn't know how to explain, because I was the “other” woman.
“Gabriel!” Suddenly a figure appeared in front of us.
Ethan Smith!
Gabriel was so scared that he immediately ran away.
I immediately stood up, having the embarrassment of being caught telling bad stories.
“I ......” I was just about to say something.
Ethan gently rubbed my head and gestured for me to sit down.
Then sat down at the desk himself.
I felt embarrassed, why did he always like to touch my head, didn't he know that this action, made people feel both intimate and ashamed at the same time?
“Why are you always so afraid of me?” He gave me a look. “I'm scary?”
I sat down a little nervously, “No, just maybe I think you're older ...... like ......”
“Like what?” He was suddenly interested.
“ Elder.” I answered honestly.
“Elder?” He laughed in exasperation. “How old are you?”
“Twenty-two.” I looked down, I didn't dare to meet his eyes.
“That's a little young.” He stopped smiling and didn't know what he was thinking.
“Wait a minute.” He stood up and went to his cubicle to change.
The few minutes I waited felt torturous, and I wanted to tell him what I was thinking.
Because Gabriel had just said that Doctor Smith didn't have a girlfriend, a flicker of anticipation flared up inside me.
I'm 22 years old and I've never been in a relationship.
And Ethan, in terms of appearance, job ......
He's pretty much what I'd expect from a significant other in every way.
Except for the fact that he's a scumbag.
I was thinking that maybe I could try to have a relationship with him.
Finally . I gathered my courage and walked outside his cubicle door.
Knocked gently on the door.
“Doctor Smith, I'd like to ask you a question.”
He didn't answer, I hesitated, but continued.
“Do you have a girlfriend? If not, could we try, I want to keep this fetus.”
Saying that one sentence seemed to take all my strength.
I stood silently outside the door, waiting for his judgment.
Then the door opened and instead of waiting for his judgment, I heard the cell phone loudspeaker yell ......
“Keep! The fetus must be retained!!!Ethan!!!If you don't handle this well, I will kick you out of the Smith family!”
He handed the phone to me and proceeded to change.
The volume on the phone was high. Enough to reflect the exasperation on the other side.
I took the phone, my heart jumping out of my chest.
“My grandfather.” He smiled helplessly.
“Angelia is speaking.”
“Oh,Angelia...... you don't be afraid, if that bad boy Ethan bullies you, I'll teach him a lesson for you,...... but the fetus must be kept......”
Ethan's grandpa was on the phone for a long time and all I could do was awkwardly say, “Okay, okay, okay ......”
And Ethan breathed a sigh of relief and went back to his position to write his chart.
Like it had nothing to do with him.
Asshole.
06
Hanging up the phone, my head was a mess.
I walk up to him and hand the phone back to him .
At the same time I didn't dare to meet his eyes.
“You really know how to get into trouble ......” He looked at me and sighed deeply.
“I didn't know you were answering the phone.”
“Whatever, don't you listen to him.”
“Doctor Smith, did you hear what I just said?” I cut to the chase.
“My grandfather heard everything.” He asked me, “Do you guess I heard him?”
“Oh, of course.” I waited for his answer.
“Think again.”
I took that as a rejection.
So I froze in place, my hands and feet going cold.
“Why?” I really admired myself. To be able to ask a question like that at this point.
“......” He froze for a moment and sighed, ”You're too young and I'm not a good person.”
I don't know how I walked out of that office.
Just kept repeating in my head the last words he said-
“The best option to fix a mistake is to stop it in time, not to cover up the previous mistake with another one.”
I told him I wasn't feeling well today and couldn't do the surgery for a while.
Then I panicked and ran away.
Two days later, when I had no hope of keeping the fetus, Ethan's family reached out to me.
This included his mom, dad, grandpa, grandma, uncle, aunt ......
In one day, I nearly broke down because of these calls.
Anyway, they had one goal in mind.
The fetus must be kept.
They would negotiate with Ethan.
The next day, Ethan showed up at my door.
“What are you doing here?” I was surprised when I opened the door and saw him.
Because he was leaning against the wall in front of my door, his face was tired.
A cigarette in his hand and several butts thrown on the floor.
“Came to settle the trouble.” He reached up and rubbed my head. Then stepped inside.
“I'm sorry, I don't know how your grandfather and the others got my number.”
I could tell.
Keeping the fetus was bothering him.
“......” He extinguished his cigarette, didn't answer me directly, sat down on the couch, and smiled, ”I'm working the night shift and I'm sleepy right now, can you let me lie down for two hours?”
“Sure.” I hurriedly took away the muppets on the sofa so that he could have a place to lie down.
No wonder he looked so tired.
After he lay down, I realized that my sofa was too small for his height, and it must be uncomfortable for him to sleep like this.
But he still fell asleep in a second.
He said he would sleep for two hours and asked me to wake him up on time.
But when the time came, his head was still buried deep in my couch and he looked exhausted.
I couldn't bear it. So I didn't wake him up.
But he woke up on time.
He looked at the mechanical watch on his wrist, “8:30, it's open.”
He sat up, his whole body looking refreshed again.
“What's open?” I asked him.
In fact, these two hours, I was very uneasy, I do not know what he came to do.
“Is the passport here?” He suddenly stared into my eyes.
“It's not here, it's at my mom's house.”
“......” He stared at me for a while, then smiled and sighed, ”It's due for a meeting.”
07
I took him to my mom's house.
Until now I was still confused.
“Angelia.” he suddenly called my name, ”Have you thought it over?”
“What?” I didn't understand what he meant, but returned a customary, “OK.”
“What I said before was true, I'm usually very busy, I'm in the hospital six days a week ,and the rest of the days I'm on call 24 hours.” He sighed.
“Oh, I understand, being a surgeon and needing to save lives all the time, that's a great profession.” I didn't really know how to take his words.
“......” He stared at me for a second, like he was trying to make sure I wasn't lying from my eyes.
I was a little flustered by his stare.
“It's fine.”
He knocked on the door.
At first my mom was a little surprised, I don't know what Ethan was talking to her about, she was very happy.
After lunch, my mom surprisingly urged me to apply for a marriage license.
“Hurry up. Ethan has work tonight.”
Me:?
I don't know what Ethan told mom.
How could she trust her daughter to a man with confidence. They met for the first time.
I just followed him to City Hall.
I hadn't gotten over the shock until I completed the marriage application.
…
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