《Hello,Doctor Smith》-Chapter 12~15
In these quiet and peaceful years，I only want to spend the rest of my life with you.
12
I went to Ethan's lounge.
He told me to wait for him to get off work and go back together.
I was laying alone in the lounge fuming.
“Where's Doctor Smith?” I sat up at once when I heard the female voice outside the door.
“He's gone to the operating room.” A small nurse's voice.
“He didn't get much sleep last night, why is he scheduled to work again?”
“A patient who needed his stitches removed specified Doctor Smith.”
I know, I shouldn't have suspected.
But hearing her say that he didn't sleep well, I still thought wrong.
“Doctor July, are you dating Doctor Smith?” The nurse asked again in a low voice.
“No...” That Doctor July tone was full of laughter.
!!!
I didn't mean to eavesdrop, but my mind was a mess when I heard that.
Finally, I quietly left.
Until I came back to my senses and was already standing at an intersection.
Many people brushed past me, but none of them stopped for me.
Thinking of my own stupidity.
I couldn't stop my tears from falling down.
I don't know how long I cried, the tears dried up.
I called a cab and went to his house and moved the clothes that belonged to me.
Back in the rental house, I edited whatsapp several times and finally pressed the send button.
The content was only one sentence.
“Let's divorce.”
It might seem childish to him, but it was all my fault.
Even if I wanted to keep him, I ran out of reasons.
I feel like I'm doing nothing but causing him trouble.
That Doctor July.
They work together, in the same world.
A perfect match.
I had no choice but to quit.
So the kiss, it was a spur of the moment thing, it didn't mean anything.
After I send the message, I turn off the phone and go to sleep.
In the midnight, I woke up because of my menstrual pain.
I dragged my tired body to drink water.
During the process, I still couldn't resist turning on the phone.
As a result, he didn't return any messages.
My mood hit rock bottom.
He might be busy.
The patient might have a new condition.
He might have fallen asleep and not seen it.
......
I went so far as to find all sorts of reasons for him.
Suddenly I felt silly.
How could I expect him to keep me.
I curled up under the covers, still unable to hold back the tears.
I think I'm in love with him.
I haven't told my mom about this.
She would have scolded me. “You're such an idiot! What a shame.”
I don't know how I fell asleep.
At seven in the morning.
I woke up suddenly.
Glancing at my cell phone.
There was a message.
“Are you awake? Open the door.”
It was Ethan.
My heart tensed.
The message was sent at six-thirty.
He came half an hour ago?
I rushed to open the door for him.
All the way there, I was worried that he had already left.
After all, he didn't seem like a patient man.
I opened the door and saw him half-smiling, leaning against the wall, smoking.
！！！！
He lifted his tired eyes to look at me.
The gaze was as sharp as a blade, and it startled me.
“Why are you here?” I shrugged.
He didn't say anything, just put out his cigarette and walked straight into my house, then skillfully closed the door.
“What do you mean, the message you sent me last night?” He pressed me against the door.
Looking down at me, forcing me to look at him.
“......” I bit my lip, not answering.
I don't know how to answer.
It was all a misunderstanding and I didn't want to force him.
“You said you wanted to try a relationship with me. What's wrong? Tired? Just a few days?”
“......” I don't say anything.
“I don't like to force things, if you're sure, then I respect your decision.”
Hearing him say he respects my decision.
My heart still stung inexplicably.
“You were willing to get married because I was pregnant. Now that I know it was a misunderstanding, I shouldn't pester you anymore. You have your life, you can be with the girls you like, you're free.” I closed my eyes and tried not to cry.
“What girl? Where are the girls from?” He was a little angry too, still suppressing his anger.
But the eyes were staring at me with the ferocity of a wild animal.
“No more talking? You have to say what girl today.”
“......” Why is he so angry?
He didn't want to get married, he was just forced by his family.
Isn't he getting what he wants now?
“That Doctor July, doesn't she like you?” I said with courage.
「......」 He froze and was silent for a while before saying, 「I know she likes me, but it has nothing to do with me. I don't have feelings for her.”
I felt happy to hear him say he didn't have feelings for Doctor July.
“Who do you have feelings for?”
“The woman who forced herself on me while I was sick.”
This guy!
Bringing up my shameful past that night again!
So ，I shut up.
“I didn't have time to check my cell phone last night.” He lowered his voice and explained, “Dealing with a patient until 5am and when I saw your message, do you know how I felt?”
How he always stays up late.
I suddenly felt a little irrational.
“What feelings.” I asked on purpose.
His whole face leaned in.
I thought his next step would be to kiss me, and I yanked my fists together.
Instead, he moved his mouth to my ear and said in a low voice, “Everything's fine about being a doctor, it's just hard to fall in love. I've lost several girlfriends over the years. On the rare occasion that a white rabbit jumps into the pit, I almost let her escape.”
I froze, his words making my heart skip a beat.
Without waiting for me to react, he inclined his head to kiss me, but I reflexively ducked.
“Heh ......” he licked his lips, ”No kiss?”
“Didn't brush my teeth.” I just remembered the disgusting situation.
“Didn't brush your teeth, or just disgusted that I smoked?” He asked me.
“No ...... I didn't brush.”
“Okay.”
He suddenly picked me up in his arms and I was airborne.
I was afraid of falling.
I had to reach up and wrap my arms around his neck. “What are you doing?”
“Going to brush your teeth.” He carried me into the bathroom.
Poked the toothbrush in my mouth.
Before I could finish brushing my teeth.
He lowered his head and kissed me.
He wouldn't stop until my tongue went numb.
Finally he wrapped his arms around my waist and held me down in his arms to catch his breath.
“You ...... don't want to divorce me?” I asked.
He was ambiguous with me but never confirmed it.
I always feel empty in my heart, a feeling of not being able to catch.
“......” He didn't answer my question directly.
He just gasped and asked with a cold face, “Do you want to do it again?”
“No!”
He thought I said those things to demand a kiss.
Although the feeling of my heart racing just now was wonderful.
But I'm not that shameless.
“Don't mess with me if you're not.” He squeezed my waist, “Do you know I'm holding back?”
My heart stuttered.
He hugged me so tightly that I realized he was hard somewhere in his body.
“I'm serious about marriage, I don't want to joke around, I want a definite answer.”
He wasn't the one for me.
But since we are married.
I can't accept him flirting with someone else.
He doesn't come home daily.
I don't seem to care.
But on his return, I feel better.
......
“Are you stupid.” He flicked my forehead with his index finger, “If I didn't fancy you, I wouldn't have lost control the first time I saw you.”
Me: ????
What do you mean?
He fell in love with me at first sight?
Is there such a possibility?
Or is he lying to me?
13
He carried me to bed.
I lay close to him.
His whole body looked incredibly tired, but he held my hand tightly and refused to let go.
In a daze, he started talking to himself again.
“That night at the hotel, I saw a group of people having a party, and you were the only one sitting quietly in the corner. My eyes were drawn to you and I couldn't take my eyes off of you for a long time. My first feeling was, this girl is so pretty and well-behaved. It must be a very pleasant life to stay with her.”
“You even ...... peeped at me!” I was stunned.
I didn't see him at the time.
At that time, I was preparing to confess to a male classmate whom I had liked for many years.
But then he brought his girlfriend.
Years of crush eventually turned into lost love.
So I sat there quietly because I didn't want to talk at all.
My heart was bitter, but I had to keep a smile on my face.
“Then you started drinking, a lot, a lot, and finally you actually ran into my room. And climbed on my bed and kissed me. Crying and kissing at the same time, I was so impressed with you.” He wrapped his arms around my waist again.
Oh my god ......
Why would I kiss him and while crying, it's so shameful.
“...... Please forget it,” I wish to erase this memory of him.
“No.” He gently nibbled on my earlobe, “Unless next time, I'll make you cry while kissing too, maybe try to refresh the memory.”
“......” Okay, I get it.
I didn't dare listen to the next thing about raping him.
Hurriedly, I rolled off the bed.
“Take a nap and I'll fix you lunch.” I asked him. “What do you want to eat?”
He smiled with his eyes closed, “Anything.”
Okay.
I don't ask him anymore.
It's strange, love really seems to be the best medicine for wounds.
I had a stomach ache last night, and my heart ached too.
But now I don't have any ache at all.
That’s so you,Doctor.
14
He slept until the afternoon.
At dinner he was always smiling.
“What are you smiling about?”
“You're a good cook.”
“I don't have many hobbies, so I study cooking a lot.”
“That's great.” He looked at me with a smile, “The food at my hospital is really bad.”
“If you can get off work on time, let me know in advance. I can prepare more delicious food for you. Or you can tell me what you like to eat and I can try it.” I took out my little notebook and recorded what he loved to eat.
He suddenly laughed again.
“What are you smiling about?” I frown.
“It feels good to be married.”
I was so happy to hear that.
It's all worth it.
I was in the kitchen cleaning dishes.
He wraps his arms around my waist behind me.
“What's up?”
“I'll try to come home on time every day from now on. Stop worrying, okay?” He kissed my neck.
It tickled.
“ Okay.”
“We can have a baby. But I have very little time to take care of the family, and I don't want you to get tired.”
He explained to me.
“If I take care of my family, I can't take care of my patients. Sometimes the patients are more important than myself. They put their lives in my hands and I have to do my best. Saving a patient is saving a family, do you understand?”
“I didn't want to hurt you when I first turned you down. You're still young. Having a boyfriend is the same as not having one. It's not fair to you.”
What he said was the truth.
I haven't enjoyed the beauty of a relationship.
I also knew that doctors were busy, especially surgeons.
But I didn't know that he had thought about it in such detail when he rejected me.
I thought he just wanted to have fun and was a scumbag who didn't want to be responsible.
“Don't worry, I'll take care of myself.” I said.
He held my hands tightly, “I'll make you happy.”
“Uh-huh.”
At this moment, my heart was sweeter than honey.
15
In the evening, Ethan left again.
I moved back into his house.
He was still busy and was only home two nights a week at most.
I couldn't see him all the time.
But soon got used to it.
Everything was going too well, and I felt that everything in my life was great.
But I always felt something was wrong.
One morning, I was wrapped in his arms from behind.
I woke up with a start, before I could say anything.
His lips were already gagging me.
His hands were all over my body.
“Angelia,” he called my name.
“Uh-huh.” I responded by wrapping my arms around his neck.
“Baby...”
......
As it turns out.
I couldn't handle his passion.
After an hour or so, I was almost deflated.
“You get some sleep.”
But he wrapped his arms around me and said helplessly, “Before, when I was off work, I just wanted to sleep.”
“Well, and now?”
“Now, all I want to do is make love to you.”
He's really getting rogue lately.
“Aren't you tired?” I stared at him in dismay.
“Very tired.” He said truthfully. “But you're like marijuana, I can't resist.”
Can you even talk properly anymore?
I'm surprised by his sweet talk every time.
“Ethan,” I buried my head in his chest, ”How did you explain to your family about the fetus last time?”
“......” He froze for a moment, ”I said I pushed you down the day before and caused a miscarriage. Tell them not to mess with you.”
What ！！！！
“Nonsense!”
“It turned out well didn't it? They treat you better than me now.”
Me:?
But what he said was indeed true.
No wonder they're more enthusiastic about me than before, and they've said nothing about that incident.
Ethan isn't exactly a romantic though.
But he actually thinks about the other person silently, just like me.
“Ethan, you're so nice.” I gave him a kiss on the cheek.
He reached up and rubbed my head, “I've spent so little time taking care of you, I wish my family would be nicer to you, as a way of making up for it.”
So that's what he had in mind.
I didn't make a sound, but my heart was sweet.
“Ethan, can we have a baby so I won't be alone.”
“Okay.”
As his breathing calmed down, he fell asleep.
I lay in his arms.
In these quiet and peaceful years，I only want to spend the rest of my life with you.
<Over!>